Yes

This week would be my last week of school. .............Yeah. ............Hope I pass all my classes. U know if anyone who attened in my political science class, which i am in right now, when they got out from the class they would become communism............and i think i am now. ................we hate america.........i think that is what our teacher is trying to teach us.......HAHHAHAHAHA............no actually he lets us know that america is trying to take over the world and in the way that america does it .........is very bad..............BAD..................if anyone want me to go to protest anything that against BUSH let me know..........and i would bring my friends with me too...........( if i have time)

bad things happen to good people

it's so true. i have night class and will come home about 10 pm. for my sefety i drvie to school instade of riding bicycle. today i saw parking spots but selfishly think that i could find the one that closer to school: i couldn't. so i parked where i need to have permit........when i read the sign i believed that i can park after 6 pm. i was wrong....what prove me wrong?...parking ticket, which worth $40. i knew something was wrong ..........about today or may be this week. what i know now is that i have 2 exams are coming up, another 2 essays that might have to be turn in this weeks.

i don't know may be good things will happen to me tomorrow!!! who knows.

Again?

I finished my 2 essays. thx god. But there was a problem......I made too many error on grammar. It was so bad that they suggested me to enroll class that I have already taken. I was so embarrass. When they told me......What and how to correct it....... I understand and know that what I have written is incorrect.......... But still........I wonder why I didn't see it before I give my papers to them. For my own goods I have to take that class. But let me think of it again ........May be not. My problem is that I don't read my paper carefully.......To read it over and over again make me feel so sick......So from now on I have to carefully read my paper before I give it to anyone to read. to retake that class make me think of walking backward.....i don't think i want to that.......no not me.

now the good news......I got the camera......and the bad news is that I don't have time.

i feel sad

do u have a period of time in ur life...... that something make u feel sad or bad?

well i had. when i was child i don't have many friends. i am the one who is the dumbest in the class ( or at lease i felt that way).........i am the one that is ugly and fat. every day in school or any where there will be something happen to me.......... to cry for it every night. i have good friends but everytime i with them i feel stupid. they are not the popular kid in the school they are count as smart kid. what they say make me feel sad and u know what my parents agree with them.

what my parents do everytime they meet my friends is telling me how smart they are and how stupid i am, i should do what they think is right, they are my good friends. everytime they meet others people they will do the same thing, tell them how stupid i am. i know it's kindda asian culture to do so but it made me felt so bad about myself.

all that feeling is change when i came to USA. here i am the smart kid. everyone come to me for answer to their problems, i am the one who know every thing in the book, i am the one that everybody wants to be my friend. i got all "A" in classes. u can call me .........um.....something apple......HEHEHE........i can't remember now. well another name for me is teacher pet. what make me write this blog is because my dad has met one of my old friends. he told me how good-and-smart-looking she is. just that.......... every bad memory all come back to me. so i mailed to him that i don't want to hear anything about them anymore...... enough is enough......i don't want to go back to have the same feeling i used to have....... now i am smart person......i am the one that people come to me for answers. i don't want to go back.

u know what funny about me? when i was in my country i am fat. people call me pig and others name. but when i am here in USA........HEHEHEHE..........they think i am too skinny.....they told me i am beautyful ..........i have nice finger nails that they don't and got to buy the fake one....seriously they think i have something like expensive fake nails on my figers that make it look natural..........i have beautiful and soft hair ....everyday my new friends have to come and touch my hair (i was like ..hey...what r u doing!!!!).........i can't believe it in the first time i heard.

when i went back to my country they think i lost some weight.......which i actually gain.......... i look at my old pic of me when i was child........ i wasn't fat........kids around me were so skinny........u actually can see their bones. well u can imagine asian kids...... how they look. now i have same weight........ of what they have in my country......and i haven't lose any weight.

i am feeling better now after writing this blog.

shopping

i don't have time to do anything since my school opened.

i can't believe i went to shopping today. i tried to remind myself that i have works to do but still my legs won't listen to me and now i am sitting infront of my com writting my blog!!!!

since i believe guys read my blog i will tell u something about women...........women will buy whatever they want eventhough they can't use that item.....ohh believe me ...........and today i bought a shirt, a short one........and it's 1-2 size bigger than what i usually wear.........i told my self well........ it's ok u just have to fix it little bit( usually when i try, at the end i throw it away cause it's too damage to wear)........HAHAHAHA........well that shirt would be on my ass as long as no one pull it down anyway ( if i don't fix it).

one thing about shirt....i don't like to wear them!!! u won't see me wearing it.........last time i wear shirt is my HS graduation.........now u ask me then y i brought that shirt.........like i told u women will buy whatever they want eventhough they can't use that item. i think it's cute so i buy it (eventhough i know that i won't wear it).

one thing i don't like about my body is upper arms ( it's call brachium?)..they r big. but my boyfriend......well.. boy who happen to be my friend.....like them he said i look strong. i don't want to look strong i want to look weak......weak like men want to protect ...u know....but i can't change that. i haven't do anything but i got muscle !!!........and i will have lot of it after i attend swimming class.

now i have to get back to work really. see ya later :-x

haaaaaaaaaaaaaa

HAHAHAHAHHA...........now i got my bg music. (u notice it right? hahahaha) i am so proud of myself.

my school is open so i will come back and talk to u later.

I did it!!!

yes finally. My brain starts to dig out more memories of what I had learn in web design class. I used to study web design back 2-3 years ago. I didn't pay much attention b/c I thought that I won't do or have a job that will relate to web design thing. If I am not wrong I even threw away the notes. I never throw away things, I always save b/c u never know when u will need them. Now I have my own blog. I want to have music and pics on it..etc........ HAHAHAHA.......... Now I deprerate to know every thing I had learn. If my teacher knows about this he would laughed to death. I even thought this class is the most boring class ever.

at lease today I figure out how to add things in web site. If u have notice (plz tell me u do) I have put "blog that" on the left side.....see it? pretty cool huh?........I know what r u thinking..........ohh, this's so easy....even a chid can do it. whatever.....I am pround of myself..and u can't change it. (period) i have been in usa for short period of time (atleast for what i think!!) i also try to remember what i have learn in eng class. i remember that what ever u r writing first sentence should get reader attention. i hope i am doing a good job.

today i discover lucid dream ....she said "My extended family is comprised almost entirely of women-- Most of the men involved have been liars and cheaters and drunks and were chased away long ago. Men are generally considered useless and unnecessary... and the bane of a woman's existance." i want to say u got it dam right girl. i don't know about anyone but i always meet or come cross those kind of guy. i never fell in love b/c i never believe what guy said. when i was 13 .........a guy 15 ys old came and said he loves me. i laughted...he was freak-out. but we went out a coulp of time. he is fine. we broke up when i came to usa. i didn't feel anything........little bit sad that i don't have anyone to talk to........but i got over it.

i met a guy on the internet ....he has gf. every hour or so he will tell me he loves his gf......... he is so cute......... i am so jealous of his gf. he told me how he treats his gf and everything...HEHEHEHE. he is a nice guy.

here is something u want to check out. Aishwarya Rai is name as The World's Most Beautiful Woman. i think she is a beautiful girl. i have sees her mv too. but i couldn't understand what she sings.....HEHEHEHE......... and sorry i didn't tell u before it went on air.

if u r looking for acne treatment cream try rite aid's.....it's work for me!!! and it's cheap too. well that's all i have for today....now update my story........ my school is open tomorrow...(hope i will get a good prof)... and my camara hasn't arrive yet. too bad.

i am having period.

yep i am having a period....oh..........no it's not my first time. only god and women know how i feel. i feel like woman when i'm having period. my bres are so freshy......i mean it looks so full. it looks so beautiful i even fall in love with them. HEHEHE call me crazy but i love mybody and hope u don't mind when i talk alot about my body. i know now if i want to take pics of myself i got to take it when i am having period.

school is open next week........ummmm.........don't know what the feeling i should have. i am glad that now i have something to do but in another hand i don't have free time. well i think i should feel glad b/c i already have lot of free time.

i love to watch CSI. i don't know why it's on 11:30 pm!! sometime i fell sleep before i know what it's going on. hate it when my favor shows are on last night. ohh mad tv too. well i don't know what to write anymore. ohh my camara haven't come yet.......... i know it says gaive some time to 1/05/05 but i want it now.

i can't believe it

i can't believe it!! i got some xxx pics on my pc and ofcouse i don't want anyone to open and see it. so i dowload the lock folder to lock my folders. i know that i can remember my password. passwords that i use for everything is so easy to figure it out by anyone!! i have the feeling for passed 1-2 days that i will forget my password so this morning i try to open my lock folder.......guess what? i forgot my password. HAHAHAHA now no one can open this folder..... oh no one .........not even me!!!!! so what i will do is uninstall the software and reinstall it. NOW i will write the password down that only me know where. god i hope i won't forget where did i put the password now. HEHEHEHE

i donated $50 for the tsumani victim last twoday ago. today me and my mom will find things in our house that we don't need and donate to the thai temple. they will send them to thailand.

what i have to do in orday to get ppl read my blog? yesterday a guy came and say happy new year to me in the comment room. wow thx i went to his blog and said happy new year to him too. so ppl come to my blog and read it. READ. READ. READ. READ.

i gtg now will see u later (if u r reading)